Day 27

Nearly 4 weeks gone!

Pole dancing went well today. Sore now and will be stiff as hell tomorrow, but it was good fun!

Mood: Utterly wiped, but in a good way
Cheats: None
Menu: Shake, tetra, bar
Fluids: 3 litres of water, a coffee and a cup of red bush tea
Weight: 12stone 7lbs. Scary biscuits

Day 25

A quick entry today due to Captain time pressue and his sidekick General tiredness.

Mood: Tired, grumpy, stressed - DON'T TALK TO ME! One of those ones
Menu: Peanut Bar - Porridge - Shake
Drinks - 2.5 L water, 1 L tea and (gasp) can coke zero
Cheats - None. Niente, Nada, Zip
Weight: 12st 8 this morning.

Overall good, just placement was quite tiring today. Roll on Friday lie in.

Day 23

Well scales showing another move down the way, and I have to admit this is a biggie for me.

Usually when I diet I follow a very predictable pattern.

I get fat, above 14 stone seems to be my snapping point, and I decide to diet.
I diet. Vigorously.
I stick in and get to 13st 3. I decide that was a good wee run, and take a "meal off".
This then leads to a wee bump during which I struggle to get back on track for a few days or even a few weeks.
I put on a wee bit of weight.
Get stuck in again.
Get past the 13st 3 mark.
Make it to 12stone 10. Then I go a bit mad, derail and put all my lost weight back on again.

This time though. I pushed through 13st 3lbs. I am also....

12 stone 9.6 lbs this morning.

I know its only .4 of a lb, but I don't care. I'm past my demon weight. I admit to getting a wee bit teary this morning in the bathroom. I'm getting there.

Menu: Apple and cinnamon porridge, banana ice cream and a peanut bar.
Drinks: 2L of tea (freezing today and don't think the ice cream helped) 1 cup coffee and 1.5 litres water
Cheats: Last night I had 4 black olives, and a piece of husbands lamb. (more on this further on)
Mood: Quite emotional today, weepy and excited and stressed
Weight: See above

Re the cheating. I think I ended up picking because I was at this 12st 10 mark. I know it sounds stupid, I mean I'll never be at goal if I don't get past it, but head tricks and all that made picking acceptable last night. I did catch myself halfway through the bit of lamb and spit the rest out, had an extra peanut bar and went to bed to watch some tv. The lamb was about 1" wide by about 1/4" thick, so it wasn't a big bit but it was enough for me to re-evaluate what I was doing and why.

I'm glad I nailed it there and then though, and I'm ultra glad the scales showed a slight move this morning too. Almost like a reward. Next week I'm aiming for 12st 7 (OMG stomach doing somersaults at that)

Then I will officially be into a size 14.

Day 22

Oh crivens!

Well had my official weigh in today at counsellors. Turns out her new scales are just a wee half pound heavier than mines so....

12 STONE 10lbs!!

I am very pleased with myself. I think I still have a fat head on though, as although I have got rid of 1 stone and 4lbs in 3 weeks, I can't see it. Sometimes I can sight of myself and think "Your face looks thinner" or "Ooh I have a jawline" and others I just think "Fat cow". Bought myself some varied packs this week for the next fortnight. And I will see my counsellor in a fortnight for official weighing ins.

This time around I bought:
7 choc peanut bars
7 apple and cinnamon porridge
1 tomato soup
11 choc tetras
5 choc orange shakes
4 choc mint shakes
7 Vanilla shakes

Absurdly enjoyed my peanut bar today. I know you can have one everyday, but just fancied spacing them out a bit.

So yeah, now for the stats

Menu: Choc tetra, peanut bar, tomato soup
Mood: Elated and focused
Drinks: Black coffee whilst out, 3.5 L water, some herbal tea later
Weight: 12 st 10lbs! Thats 1 stone, 4lbs lost in 3 weeks.
Cheats none.

Day 20.

Going well my friends.

Mood: In the zone!
Menu: 3 shakes
Drinks: 2 coffees, a peppermint tea and 2.5 Litres of water
Cheats: None
Weight: 12 stone 12lbs.

Its so hard remembering to type the 12 for stones instead of 13. Oh happy days. In 4 weeks I'll be typing "11" instead

Yo. Day 17?

I think. Losing track of days, pretty sure that its day 17.

Anyhoo... this morning I was 12st 13lbs.

I'm in the frickin' 12's man.

Just think, another 4 weeks and I could be in the 11's.

Almost pooping myself with excitement here.

Yo. Day 17?

I think. Losing track of days, pretty sure that its day 17.

Anyhoo... this morning I was 12st 13lbs.

I'm in the frickin' 12's man.

Just think, another 4 weeks and I could be in the 11's.

Almost pooping myself with excitement here.

Day 16!

Well! Yesterdays unofficial weigh on showed that I had only lost 1.5 - 2lbs since last week. However I was not downhearted, as there were as mentioned previously a few factors that would be affecting the weigh in that week. Undeterred, I had a quick hop on the scales this morning, and I've dropped 1.5lbs since yesterday ! Now when weighing I always round down to the nearest pound for psychological boosting e.g 13st 3.6lbs would be 13st 3. I aint sweating the small stuff. However this mornings weight was exactly on the pound mark.

Also having had a quick count of shakes, I have noticed that I am a shake short. In an ideal world I would contact my CDC and get one more, but she lives about a hour away on bus. I'm too lazy. So last night for dinner I had a tin of tuna and some veg. Like an 810 meal. This was not ideal I know but I felt it was important to get the protein in. I also wanted to do it way before weigh in to give any salt time to work its way and settle through my system. I enjoyed it but I wasn't thrilled with the tuna. I think you build food up for so much more than it is on CD.

ANYWAY....

Weight: 13st bang on. A stone lost in a fortnight!
Mood: Slightly "high"
Cheats: None
Drinks: Aiming for 4L of mixed allowable fluids today
Menu: 3 random shakes.

Day 13.

DA DA DUUUUUNNNNN! sorry, just cause it was 13.

Well basically day 13 went without a hitch until I got home. I didn't pick, that issue has been resolved BUT thought shake drawer looked a bit bereft. So I did a quick count.

I be missing 2 shakes. Now I always keep a spare, so I'm only short 1 meal but its a bit puzzling like.

Day 12

Oooft.

Sorry for lack of update, been hectic on placement. So how have the past few days been? Well, scales report a 1lb loss since Saturday. That's not great I know, however the following factors may have affected this.

• TOTM, started Monday. Yay (not). Its good my PCOS is resolving to a regular 28 days cycle now, but still its a pain in the ass because...
• I've been picking. Since Monday and my desire for SWEETS. I ate 2/3 of an easter egg shell, through picking. And half a skinless chickn thigh. Its stopped now.
• Waters not been great, today I so far managed 3litres, however Monday - Tuesday I managed the bare 2.5 Litres. Given I usually shift 3-4 on a normal day its a bit disappointing.
  
• Tired. Not sleeping as much, and working more on the wards so its all a bit haywore at the moment.
  

I'm hoping I will get my groove on over the next few days again, today has been a good day, so hoping for good results for the rest of the week and upto the 23rd. Looking at the big picture I have lost 12lbs in a fortnight so far, which is great. I would love to be in the 12's for meeting my counsellor on the 23rd.

Diet: Choc Orange shake, Choc Tetra, Choc mint shake
Drinks: 3l water.
Mood: Tired stressed and hormonal
Cheats: None today!
Weight: 13 st 2lbs this morning.

Day 9

Well, the blog over the next 6 weeks may be slightly more condensed, as I am out busy during the week now. Weight probably only updated on weigh in day, but will still try to log in regularly.

Menu: 3 random shakes today
Drinks: Black coffee, 3 L water
Cheats: None
Mood: Alright actually. Feeling good. Jeans are lose around the thighs and tummy.

Day 8 - Weigh in day

Well folks, the unofficial official results are in - This morning...... I weighed..... 13 st 3lbs! Thats 11lbs off in a week!

Whoop whoop!

Am very pleased with myself and looking forward to another day cheat free. Good stuff.

Menu: Choc Orange, Choc Mint and Vanilla Latte
Drinks: 750ml herbal tea, 2.75 L sparkling water
Cheats: Half an inch square of husbands tandoori chicken.
Weight: 13st 3
Mood: Very VERY happy!

Day 7

Thats a week gone! Going to have unofficial official weigh in tomorrow as not seeing CDC until 25th.
Anyhoo...

Menu: Choc Mint shake, Choc Orange, Vanilla Latte
Drinks: Herbal tea (2 mugs) 3 L still water
Mood: Feeling really really positive. No temptation yesterday at all
Cheats: Nope
Weight: 13 stone 4lbs bang on this morning.

In a moment of pure anal retentiveness, I organised all my shakes into nice neat rows in the kitchen drawer where they live. Then I alphabetised them. I need to get a grip.

Have entered a summer solstice challenge, which is set for 21st July/10 weeks away. I have put myself down for 28lbs to lose, which is an average of 2.8 lbs a week. I'm quietly confident that I'll get this. Was going to aim for 35lbs but although average on this is 14lbs a moth, feel setting the bar for that would be courting failure or disappointment.

Sailed through Day 6 yesterday. No temptation to have anything remotely non CD related, and had to remember to have my 3rd pack at 9:30pm tonight.

Roll on day 7!

Day 6

Menu: Vanilla latte, Chocolate shake, cappuccino shake
Drinks: 2L Sparkling water, 1.75L still water and some herbal tea
Cheats: None
Mood: Good, very determined this morning.
Weight: 13 St 4lbs

If I remain at 13st 4 for Saturday I'm more than happy with that. That takes me to a 10lb loss for my first week back. This means by the time I go to see my CDC I will most definitely be in the 12 stone bracket. maybe even 12st 11lbs? We'll see. I don't want to get too ahead of myself but am really very excited.

Looking at previous weeks on CD, I have lost an average of 4lbs a week and derailed when I got to 12st 10, because I went out on a night out, drank too much wine and had a chinese takeaway. Never really got the headspace again after that.

Not this time. It really is the last attempt on this.

In other news I made husband a batch of homemade scones this morning. Meant to make them last night, but felt the temptation to pick was a bit too strong. Felt "munchied" last night. No problems this morning though, and pieces and sausage for breakfast.

DAY 5

Menu: Strawberry shake, Vegetable soup, Chocolate shake
Fluids: 1.5 L of sparkling water, 2.5 L of still water, 1 black coffee
Cheats: None again. I'm being soooooo good
Mood: Chipper, still stressed re exams
Weight: 13 st 5lbs

Almost a week! I feel somehow validated that its day 5. I always struggle with days 3 and 4 for some reason, however looking forward to the end of the week for my unofficial official weigh in. Don't see counsellor for 3 weeks, on the 25th of April, so any weigh ins are really unofficial.

Feeling a bit chipper and because its day 5, its day 5 of 83!!! Which means I only have 78 days to go before I can add a meal and it will be the end of my Sole Source part of the diet (hopefully)

Really looking forward to weigh ins, have devised a reward system as I progress down, and its really important not to reward with food so at 13st I am treating myself (or rather husband is) to a pedicure. Professional Like.

Next weekends looking likely!

Day 4

Menu: (B) Strawberry shake :( (L) Vegetable soup (D) Vanilla latte shake.
Fluids: Black coffee, 2.75 L still water, 1 L sparkling water (4.05 L)
Cheats: None!
Mood: Tired, stressed about exams, driving tests and the next 80 days without food.
Weight: 13stone 7lbs

Day 3

Menu: (B)Banana Shake (L) Vegetable Soup (D) Strawberry shake
Cheat: none
Mood: At dentist this morning, so was a bit nervy. That went okay though, so determined to have another good day.
Fluids: 2.1 L still water, One black coffee, 2 L sparkling water. TOTAL: 4.5 L FLUID
Weight: 13st 9lbs as of this morning.

Day 2

Will update more later - This is just so I can edit if need be when I'm home later.

Menu: (L) vegetable soup, (D) Vanilla shake, (T) Choc Mint shake
Drinks: 1 mug black coffee, 2.5 L still water, 1.5 L sparkling water. Total 4.3 L fluid
Mood: Good so far! Now home: Bit nauseous and a wee bit of a headache going on
Cheats: None :D
Weight: 13st 11 lbs

And today as a special treat. The measurements.

Bust 44
Waist 37
Hips 45
Bra size/Dress size: 36F-FF/ Size 16

Day 1

Well hello there

I'll try to log in every day, but not too sure If I'll be able to, But I will be honest. Any slip ups, cheats, highs and lows right here. I'll try to note down as much information as possible, for my own records and for anyone else reading.

So a bit about me. I'm 27. I've struggled with my weight for years. I used to be slim, unfortunately meeting my husband and eating man sized portions coupled with a desk job and development of PCOS meant that at my heaviest point I weighed 15 stone 7 lbs. I've tried every diet known to man (almost), Atkins, Weight Watchers, Scottish Slimmers, Slimming World, Detox, Slimfast, Cabbage soups... I estimate that I've lost and gained over 15 stone in a destructive cycle of getting so far and thinking "ach sod it" and derailing in a spectacular manner.

Currently I weigh 14 stones according to my counsellors scales this morning. I have approximately 3.5 stones to lose to take me to a goal weight of 10 stone 7lbs.

Each day I'll blog, if nothing else, how I've felt, how I've coped with the day and what I've had.

This is day 1 for me on the Cambridge diet Sole Source. This means 3 shakes, porridge or soups a day, totalling no more than 450 calories.

Menu: (B) Cappucino shake, (L) Porridge, (D) Chocolate Orange shakes.
Drinks: 2 Litres of sparkling water, 1.5 Litre of still, one black coffee and 1 black tea. Total Fluid (4 Litres)
Cheats: None
Weight: 14st
Mood: Alright, determined and slightly pleased with myself.